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Time is running out. I am now officially entering the last few months of my travel adventure. The good news arrived last week in the form of an E-Mail: My coop informed me that I won the housing lottery for the option on an apartment in Karlsruhe. The lease will start in September. That gives me ample time to conclude my travels as well as to prepare for my return to Germany.

Concerning the next weeks it’s probably sensible to stay in SEA for at least a little while longer. To keep my costs in check. I am still enjoying Bangkok. I explored many markets, temples, malls, small streets and parks over the last days. But it feels like my time to leave Bangkok comes soon. I am unsure where to go next. I did amass quite a bit of luggage over the last 2 months. One idea I had was to just store part of it here in Bangkok and go explore the north of Thailand. I am surprised that it’s such pleasant weather despite it being the rainy season.

Being prone to anxious thought patterns, I find that my planning always takes more energy than I anticipate. Counteracting that I tried to go into a new place with minimal to no information but that gets problematic real fast too. Being tired and stuck at an airport at 2am with no idea how to get to the accommodation is no fun too. When I land in a new place, it takes time for me to orient. I noticed that I am not as quick to adapt compared to some other travelers I met. Striking a balance between planning and “figure it out when I get there” is surprisingly challenging. Even after five months, I still make mistakes. I face challenging situations often: no clean shirt and no laundry in sight, the sink or bathroom is stinky or outright dirty, roaches saying hello, bad planning that leads to expensive refund of flight reservations, accidentally booking a room in a sketchy neighborhood or accidentally ordering food from questionable places. That is part of being a traveler, I guess. Even the best of planning doesn’t prevent mistakes. Stuff goes wrong, and I became used to it. Sometimes it’s my fault, sometimes it’s the circumstances. I learned to be ok with either and roll with the punches.

There’s less self-blame and less anxiety about it these days. I try to find a balance between planning and spontaneity. My new timeframe reset the focus, but I still embrace the slow-traveling mindset. I am never afraid that I could miss out on something. I can always come back to that specific country/region in the future for a dedicated visit. I am more relaxed and less stressed by smaller obstacles. If I compare myself now with me when I went to Santiago — I am way more laid-back and confident. In just a couple of months I developed a deep trust in my abilities to work through anything. I am so grateful to have this opportunity and the time to explore the world on my own terms. At the same time, I am looking forward to establishing a stable base in Karlsruhe in September.